i really have no direction as to what i am going to write about right now but i do know i need to get cracking on writing something. i mean i have a blog thats basically just collecting dust. i think the reason i have not written in so long is because many things in my life are going pretty good. i mean i of course, have the usual trials of creditors on my back, being overdrawn on my bank account & the fact that i hate my apt. but other than that, i'm happy. i love my job. i love what i do. im appreciated. i have some money in my pocket. and i am baking things despite the fact that i havent had business cards or menus in over 6 months.
Most of my orders have been thru my job--cookies, small cakes, breakfast cakes, etc. But recently I made a large 1/2 sheet cake that altho i know tasted good, was a mistake to undertake. Mainly becuz the woman (an ex-employee from a previous job) i did it for is someone whom i had a feeling might ask for alot & could possibly be difficult. she did and i tried to do alot & ended up with a cake that i thought looked nice, but i dont think was what she wanted. she wanted an italian flag, lemon curd fillings, stuff written in italian and then she wanted me to deliver it all the way over to San Francisco at 9:30pm. i did what i could in the decorating dept., delivered the cake on time & high-tailed it outta there. Never heard back from her. Oh well. what did that experience teach me? That if i'm not completely sure i can do something, just say no. Other opportunitys will come along. I didnt have to do that cake but I did because i couldnt really think of an excuse quick enough to back out of it. Oh, she also wanted me to dress up like Marilyn Monroe and deliver the cake. I kid thee not. I said no to that one. I'm a pastry chef not a drag queen.
I havent done as much baking as you would think these days tho. I used to love to just use my wknds for baking experiments. stay in the kitchen all weekend coming up with new things to put on my menu. Now i'm just blah about it. Not because I've lost my enthusiasm for baking but simply because i dont like my kitchen. I dont like my whole apt but thats another story entirely. But my kitchen is too small and dosent have enough work space and before i can even get all my ingredients out, the place is a utter mess and i havent even begun baking. I need to buy a kitchen cart w/ a cutting board on it. I need space. I need to be completely relaxed & at ease when i bake. a glass of champagne & my music going isn't out of the question either. So i've done very little experimenting these days. I have plans tho to do more and I will. I just have to get my head in the right space and my apartment more feng shui. its very out of balance and just disgusting.
Ive been taking photos of the back area of my apt building and sending them to my landlord because its just beyond filthy. people dump garbage anywhere they please. dirty filthy baby diapers all over the place. heaps & heaps of trash just laid out in the area where we park. No one cleans up. its a disgrace & illegal so i took photos, sent them to my landlord & wrote her some pretty stern letters. My next stop is filing a formal complaint with the city. Calling some lawyers and getting an inspectors involved. I went to Sentinal Fair Housing website and found out that California Civil Code Sections 1941 and 1942 says that it is the owners responsibility to see that buildings and grounds shall be free of rubbish, garbage, rodents, and other pests. It also falls under another code for illegal dumping which is done w/ complete abandon at that bldg. Oh all kinds of laws are being broken at that building as we speak. So she can take her sweet time. I'm giving her a few more weeks and then I'm making my calls. I made the huge mistake of signing a yr lease which i hope can be broken somehow. I do not want to live there anymore. & the landlord takes her good sweet time about getting things done and sometimes answers your emails and sometimes dosent. I look at this apt. as a place where i sleep and thats it. But sleep or no sleep i have a right to live in a clean environment. I've never sued anyone before but the idea of doing it seems really exciting. Like an episode of Perry Mason or Judge Judy where the bad guy or gal gets a major tongue lashing & is sent packing while the good guy walks away the winner with the cash!
One last thing about that trashy apartment--my window is right behind this nasty section 8 apt bldg. where theres constant noise, yelling, loud azz talking, people blaring rap music from their cars at unheard of decibils at ungodly hours of the night. Next door is a crack apt. bldg. its just disrespectful and more reasons why i'm gettin outta Oakland. Bye Bye Oaktown--i defended you to the end when people put you down as being dangerous & ghetto now I'm gonna talk about you like a dog when i leave!